Three years today

Went to my late sister's niche today with mum, Shirley and Brian.

I saw a man having a private "picnic" in front of his wife's niche. She had passed on last year. He had brought his lunch box, flowers and a little folderable stool where he quietly sat eating his lunch. How he must love and miss her.

For me, mostly I don't dwell on my sister's passing away. There's too much to do everyday. But on days like today, I miss her.

I thank God for the memory of her.

It all came back to me

Yaay! I've completed 4 chapters... errrr... 14 more to go!

I had to lay off writing for about a month and half because so many things kept coming in the way. I know I've set myself a ridiculous deadline... to complete my first draft by end January / mid February.

I had made several attempts to pick up from where I left off, but the engine just wouldn't crank up.

I asked to be on writing leave this week... God bless my colleague. He said yes. I shut myself in the house and sat myself in front of the computer... and yes, I prayed, alot.

It all came back to me. I completed 3 chapters in the last 3 days. Thank you Lord!

Wrong page, right words

I was supposed to be reading Proverbs 17 today. I didn't realise that I had flipped two pages instead of one -- I read the second half of Proverbs 20 instead of Proverbs 17.

The verse that stood out to me on the "wrong" page was Proverbs 20:24. It says,

"Since the Lord is directing our steps,
why try to understand everything that happens along the way?"
(The Living Bible)

The Lord directed me to the "wrong" page... and the "wrong" verse spoke to my heart.

For the past few days I have been very perplexed over different issues I am trying to understand and deal with. Psalms 131 is an appropriate attitude to adopt. It doesn't pay to lose sleep over some matters.

Search Engine

I have to keep apologising to God profusely for making Him my Search Engine. These days, I keep asking him to find things that I lose. I don't know why I keep losing things.

The lastest was a Filipina friend's Medical School graduation certificate! Her dad passed it to me when he passed through Singapore.

I searched very hard for many days! Praise God it "popped up" today after desperately asking Father to make me find it.

My Father can take care of me and cover for all my shortcomings. He is very kind.

Sorry ma'm. We closed all applications

Strange how things work themselves out. After contemplating really hard for a few weeks about whether to join the gym or not, I finally decided today that I would go sign up after work.

I was hesistant about it because I found the charges a stretch on my pocket. But mostly I was afraid I would drop out... as with many things... good starter, poor finisher... I wanted to make sure I would commit to make it work. I also knew that if it didn't pinch my pocket, I would not put in the effort to make it work.

Hahaha... what a joke. I went there at 7.30 pm. The gym instructor said, "Sorry ma'm. We closed all applications for membership this afternoon at 2 pm." He said he was only an employee there and he didn't know why they were not taking in any more members. He said he was shocked himself.

Oh well, maybe it's God's way of protecting me in case the place closed down or whatever. I hope something else works out for me.

Hot air rises

Been a great day. Had the gals over to reflect and to give thanks for 2005. It was meaningful to listen to them. It's a privilege to journey with them. Thank you Lord for your blessings.

The neighbours' kids came again. I'm glad they got to meet the gals.

In the evening, we celebrated Dad's birthday. He turns 76 on Thursday, 8th. My four-year-old niece, B3, pulled me aside to show me her toys and little "secrets". She made it quite clear that she had exclusive rights to aunty.

After dinner, the two boys walked me to "my" bridge. B2 held my hand as we walked. B1 says he has a plastercine face and did all kinds of funny things with his face. I enjoyed the talk and jokes.

When we got to the bridge to part ways, the boys gave their aunt hugs and kisses. B1 gave me a big grin, farted and said, "Hot air rises!" Then they turned around and laughed their way home.

:-( :-( :-( :-( :-( .... :-)

Today has been the lousiest day I've had in a looong time. Nothing went right starting from the 6 am phone call I got that disturbed my sleep. Then it's been one interruption after another. I got upset with different people for different reasons. And then the kids next door kept ringing my doorbell to ask for this and that and the other... ok I'm too tired to fill in the details.

Ok for better news... 10 minutes ago, I was sorting through my pile of papers and found the missing list of birthdays. I have been upset with myself for losing it. I didn't realise that I had made a photo copy of the precious list!

So yaay...

P.S. I discovered this afternoon that lost another document that belongs to a friend. Sigh... I've been losing things a lot. Booo hooo hooo...